my inspiration

your like the sunrise
a radiant array of colors
so different, so right
your the beginning to something new
and like the sunrise
your overwhelming
and though it doesn't feel absolute
or even really right sometimes
as bad as i want it to be
i can only lie to myself for so long
before i know i'm just fooling myself
and its deceiving
like when you see the sky
in a perfectly still body of water
i know there's not two sky's
just like i know everything here is not right
yet being with you makes me better
you make me feel alive inside
like the first warm breeze in the spring time
you touch like the sun beaming down on me
warming me up from the cold
you give me motivation
to actually want to smile
or to care about my appearance
motivation to try and trust again
maybe to even try and love again
when i'm not with you
i feel nothing
maybe partially the crack in my heart
that just kinda hurts all the time
like an unfortunate person
who suffers from chronic pain
when you are away from me
my heart beats low, heavy perhaps
you heart is not supposed to feel like a weight
but mine does
it weighs down like the Autumn leaves that fall
they are so beautiful
but it is known that they are falling
because in fact they are dying
that's what i feel like most of the time
like a declining leaf
on a beautiful Autumn day
and like the winter
the night creeps around
and without you at night
i'm an isolated snowflake
in a ray less somber darkness
left delicate and fragile
in all reality it's simple
i don't need  you to survive
but i want you with me
for when i'm with you
i am better