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why is it always the simple things that seem so sad... like you rubbing your hands up and down my arms in an effort to warm me up...... or your simple smile that was so blissfully happy.... just your face, the image of me making you laugh is so devastatingly sad..... it makes me want to cry... you know me.... you knew everything i wanted in life.... even now, i feel like i need you.... you always knew how to comfort me best.... but now i feel lost.... with no direction.... somebody find me a compass.... i wish  you were here....so you could hold my stomach like you used to..... i don't feel like i'm holding it together like i need to be.... you were my glue..holding me together... now i'm falling a part while i'm trying to duck tape my pieces back together.... and it scares me... that sometimes i want to drive all the way to you just for one long, exaggerated hug... that i want so badly to hold onto forever but i know i can't have it all back.... stop crying megan.... ouch